I spend a ton of time on this one word: Why? But I am finding out that this really not my job to be consumed with Why? By nature, I am curious. I am type A. I want control. So I constantly asking and questioning... Why?
Well, I am learning (the hard way but healthy) that Why is not for me to figure out. As a Christ follower, I am getting a heavy needed slap upside my head on the words "complete submission". My son Teddy is very curious and an expert question asker. The boy rattles off more questions in a day than should be allowed by law. And sometimes I get frustrated by all the Whys...Well, I do the same thing.
Why did this happen? Why am I going through this? Why can't I get that? Why should this take this long? Why isn't my plan the best? Why do I have to? Why Why Why....Stop it Chris! That's not your job and role.
Below are examples of points I have now grasped:
- It's not my plan is that perfect...in fact my plan is full of flaws
- It's not my role to figure out Why?
- It's not my job to question everything.
- It's not good for me to control.
- I have a limited perspective and simply can't see the whole picture
The lessons I have learned are tough; they sting! Here is the list from my notes on this process:
- Put ego on the shelf. I am not that smart
- Your plan won't work and is flawed
- You have a very limited lens of which you can see the big picture...like looking at the state of Texas through a straw
- Trust God. Always.
- Faith can't be just some great word to be loosely thrown around. Chris you better really understand and work on this word Faith.
- Being comfortable is not the goal. Being comfortable can't be the focus. Making a difference is the goal. And you can't be comfortable all the time and make a huge difference. That formula doesn't work.
You have a front row seat to this work in progress....terribly messy but real.
